I have made my mind about this diary. I wanted to have one as something to write in, not in Russian but in English. My learning the language has turned into obsession. I read in English every day, I see movies and series almost daily, I have even started to read one interesting forum about foreigners in our country. I have covered two copybooks with writing - it was something like diary, some notes about my life, - and, finally, continued to write in my old paper diary in English but stopped after several days. Somehow the paper diary makes me feel uncomfortable to write in it. It's too formal, too beautiful. I don't feel free to write everything I want. All my thougths seem childish and silly.

Thereby I decided to use this diary as a place to write in only in English. I have been thinking about creating a new one in order to give my Internet friends a possibility to read and comment. But now I don't think that's a good idea. I'm afraid that I won't be able to write in a diary constantly. There are periods of times when I like to share my thoughts with a diary and there are another ones when I don't want to do it. If somebody reads my diary, I will feel guilty every time I don't write when they expect me to. If nobody reads my diary, there is no responsibility at all. There is freedom. I like it.

So, I' starting a new life with all my wish to do it and belief in good.