I'm addicted to Internet. Again. Maybe I haven't even got rid of it as I thought I have. But just about some minutes ago I have realised that all I need to be content is Internet. Don't get me wrong. It doesn't make me completely happy. It's not that sort of happiness I'd like to have. But it helps me to live. To live is much more easier when I've got a PC with an Internet in it.

You see, I like reading books and watching series. Lately the only books I like to read are fanfics. And I can read them on the computer only. The same about series. There is no way I'm watching series on the DVD. Yes, I can download them but there is no dvd-box in my room. And I'm not about to watch very interesting stuff being afraid to be catch by parents or brothers. Don't worry, I'm not talking about porn or something like that. The thing is, when I chose a movie to watch I'd like to watch it alone. It's about privacy. It's about modesty. I don't like to give in my emotions in front of people, no matter how close they are to me.

So, here I am. I have nothing to do except watching a movie or reading a book or being in the Net. It all includes a PC. According to this, I suffer when there is no computer around me. I feel useless. Thank Gods, I have my little mp3 what gives an opportunity to read or listen to music. But it's not the same. Besides, not every time I have the files to read. Sometimes I forget to transport them from the PC to the mp3, and it sucks.

I might write I'd like to have a personal PC but it wouldn't be completely true. It's not very necessary. I'll live without it.